I’ve been feeling pretty convicted lately about how I spend my time. It’s pretty much all about me. Now, given, I love my girls and definitely take time out of the week to be with them but for the most part, I feel like I’ve been playing the role of self-focused, self-centered single adult pretty well. In fact, I would tell you one of the best parts of being a single adult is that you can do whatever you want whenever you want to do it.
But what does that really end up looking like? Well, I don’t know about your life but for me, it involves a lot of sleeping and watching Netflix and not a whole lot else.
There, I said it. It’s out. I’m a lazy Netflix addict.
But, really, it’s not enough just to say it. I need to do something about it. I need to use the giftings I have received from the Lord daily so that they do not grow weak! I need to spend my time, not throw it away on trivial, meaningless things like watching every season of Mad Men or Game of Thrones. And, if I’m REALLY being honest with myself, the things that are going into my mind when I’m participating in hours of binge watching those particular television shows (and most, really) are not the things of the Lord – I’m not spending hours watching Daystar here.
Anyway, I recently realized this is a problem in my life. It’s not just the binge watching that is the problem, it’s that the way I spend my time is in direct opposition to the way I want to spend my time – and the person I want to be.
Dream Stormye is a fierce woman of the Lord who knows the Word and can recall scripture in teaching and in conversation without having to say “you know.. that one that says something like…” or Googling it first. Fully-realized Stormye spends more of her time in the Word and with the Lord and focusing on the things of the Lord than ANYTHING else. Her nose is always in a book, she blogs on the regular (ahem), she spends her time encouraging those around her in the Lord because she KNOWS him.
I think part of this vision came when I was desperately trying to catch up on 8 days worth of daily Bible reading (yes, I know – see? I have a problem!). I was reading through Numbers and there was a section that really caught my attention. Aaron and Miriam were kind of trash-talking Moses and God (of course) heard them. God didn’t let this slide – in fact, he got pretty angry and he immediately intervened. I love what the Lord has to say about his servant Moses in Numbers 12:
And he said, “Hear my words: If there is a prophet among you, I the Lord make myself known to him in a vision; I speak with him in a dream. 7 Not so with my servant Moses. He is faithful in all my house. 8 With him I speak mouth to mouth, clearly, and not in riddles, and he beholds the form of the Lord. Why then were you not afraid to speak against my servant Moses?”
Y’all. That is pretty incredible. There is an intimacy that Moses has with the Lord that is different than other prophets and it is something I long for. Can you imagine the Lord stepping in to defend you in this way? To be so intimately acquainted with the Creator of all – speaking with him mouth to mouth, beholding his form – that when someone is speaking against you he IMMEDIATELY intervenes? We know that Moses wasn’t perfect – he killed a man, he acted out in anger, he never was allowed entry into the promised land, but the Lord loved him and knew him.
And you know, the more I thought on this, the more I realized that we have an advantage that Miriam and Aaron and other people in the Old Testament didn’t have – we have Jesus. We have the Holy Spirit.
There’s another part a chapter earlier (like I said, I caught up on quite a bit of reading) where Moses is complaining to God about the people he is leading and how much of a burden it is. None of them can seem to get it and he just needs some help. So God, because he is awesome, tells Moses that he will give some of the Spirit that is within Moses to the 70 elders to help him out. This doesn’t mean that Moses suddenly had less of the Holy Spirit, it just means it was gifted to more people.
Guys. Do you see this? Moses had the Holy Spirit. We have the Holy Spirit. While we may not be hearing audible words from the Lord or seeing his form, we have been given the gift of the Spirit to encounter and interact with him in ways that we would otherwise miss out on.
What a shame to throw all of that away on Netflix.
So what’s my resolution, you ask? Why, thank you for asking! I resolve to rid myself of Netflix and Hulu for at least a month. I plan on spending time blogging (because I really do learn a lot when I write these things), working diligently on my D-Group study and, come June 1st, the beautiful Women in the Word study by She Reads Truth. I will pray without ceasing and surround myself with worship to prepare my heart to encounter and interact with the Lord Most High DAILY. I will not let my fear of being unable to relate to pop culture keep me from relating to my King.
I’m not asking any of you to give up something you don’t see necessary, but if this has resonated with you maybe you’ll join me? How wonderful would it be if we actually took the Lord up on his offer to know him and be changed by him? Because, really, I think this will change us.
Let me know if this is something you will join me in. Would love to be praying for you in your journey. Love you, friends!